Sunday, February 20, 2011

Long time no see!

So, I've been busy. Okay, okay...I've been ridiculously busy. I'm not even sure anyone actually missed my blogs, but I missed writing them! So here were are.....as I procrastinate studying for Biology exam. Hmmph. I just can't muster up the motivation to do anything that involves my brain to function on some sort of an intellectual level. Hey, you can't win them all, right?

When I was 20, if you would have asked me what I thought I would be doing when I was 28 I probably would have told you working, being a wife, and a mom. Funny how the plans you often make for yourself aren't even close to the plans the big man has for you. The more of life I live the more I believe in fate and the more I believe in God's plan for my life. I gave up trying to figure that out a long time ago. I figured that He would bring people into my life when He felt like I was ready for them and put me in situations where I would be in trouble if I didn't trust Him. I never would have planned out the story that has actually been written for me, but I am so thankful He is better at writing this book than I am. I often feel undeserving of a lot of things in my life. I am beyond blessed to share this life of mine with some incredible people. These people have challenged me, encouraged me, and loved me....all in perfect timing.

I feel like if I would have been writing my own novel it wouldn't have been as exciting. I would have a nice house, loving husband, a stable job, and a couple of cool kiddos. Not that I don't want all of that, but looking back...I was never really ready for any of that. I am finally starting to figure out who I am...who God meant for me to be. I feel like you can't REALLY know anyone else until you know yourself and just recently have I discovered that. I'll be the first to admit that my path isn't always clear. I make my fair share of mistakes and I know that I always will. The one thing I do know and can always fall back on is that my story is still being written....every day. When I feel like I'm standing still its only because the next page hasn't been written yet. I find comfort in knowing that the best is yet to come and that its something bigger and better than I could have ever planned for myself.

I promise to write more often. I hope you like reading as much as I like writing. =)

see you soon.